Love Begets Love

You are happy to know that your past love had been
there for you in times of distress. You knew it so well that despite situations
before and just like any young love where people part ways, you are someone
whom they will never forget. You are someone whom they will want to have for
life, for friendship maybe in times that each, including you, has already been
walking through one’s own path of life. For your past, you were once their
original oil painting, and never a second best print.

Yes, as they say, do not regret to love intensely
because no matter what happens, you will always be remembered. You will just be
surprised that in times of need, that someone whom you loved with all of your
might will be there to redeem you from an ugly situation. Then with this, you
realize that with all those character attacks or even complaints that you hear
from them which are addressed directly to you, you are just someone that they
had an extremely hard time to forget, throughout these years. Why not? When all
your strength had been given to love? You are someone very emotional, then it
is already expected in your end to love more than others know love. But things
change. As how they cannot forget you, you feel otherwise. You want them in the
attic as how a wall painting that has been part of your memories is kept. Loving is emotionally draining which is
something that you do not want anymore to happen in your life despite the
search of who will be the right man for you which takes place amid your
interest over the idea of soulmate. But not in a chance that you regret a
single moment during the time you were loving. It is true that when you love a
person, you do not see what have you been giving to him emotionally as long as
you see him and he stays by your side. And yes, it is emotionally draining
until such time that you wanted to break free from this so-called emotional
attachment. In fact, you once thought that a no-strings attached relationship
may be interesting. But then, knowing yourself you know that at the end of the
game, you are the one losing because, as usual, you have already given in to
love. That is madness, you think! You,
having close to 40 should have already mastered emotional detachment to a love
partner. You, who have already been complete by just being you with a partner who
sees himself as a whole had no chance to be a better half to each other. That
simple!

But in such a case, you then think of what’s the
relationship for? One can only tell, perhaps, once she tries. But giving it a
shot will take a quite deal of mind-setting just as how a non-artist will first
attempt to create an original oil painting.