State of Depression

Depression is not easy to cure unlike other physical diseases if harassment or the cause of depression is ongoing and they accuse you of being paranoid already when you know deception and human degradation that no ordinary one of typical strength can endure exist in the realm of reality and not just a vision that you see as you stare at a landscapepainting.

Depression attacks in different degrees. There are times, mobility is tasking while during fortunate times, creating a magnificent Asian art just happens in a snap. More than anything, healing comes from within and not from outside force. Yet despite the effort to live normal and making oneself productive, moving forward is not that easy when there are people around who keep on playing mind tricks on you, harassing you underground, using all against you, and punishing you behind the scene if things do not go their way. You do not know what these people want or what contest is going on that they keep on hitting on you, or just simply you are hella a commodity where people can amass fortune from. And yes, this is all in the middle of you fighting depression for years. But managing to survive is a miracle already. Despite some unusual situations, you know very well you are the best of Asian art. And we speak of not just living but as much as possible living productively, decently while being in charge of some other tasks. And along the way, you know there is God behind you. While He takes care of you, there are people who inflict more pain on you left and right. It might be sad but is true but as they say, reality bites and there is no worry with God on your side.

Along the journey, you realize how much you have achieved relatively with your health situation. You face harassment and the cruelty of inconsiderate people, you develop yourself and restore the knowledge that you lost, you built a career out of ugly situations, you manage to take care of a child and a house and fight your attackers with swagger and make them submit to you instead of you giving in to them.

Yet despite the strength shown, a few days in a month make it hard to move. The heart just feels like on the verge of exploding. The pain rests in the mind. The heart palpitates just like that. And you remember your underground harassers, the people turning around situation to make you look bad, the fate that you caught while in the middle of all these you remained to have so much zest for life. And tears just flow. They become unstoppable. And a click on a keyboard, no matter how much strength to put on your finger seems hurtful. Yet you manage to put doubt to people that you are in a state of depression because throughout the years, you have learned to manage yourself well. The worst is that people use this mental illness to make excuses from harassing you. They do this subtly and plead innocent. They run away from the crime with ease after all who would believe that they are guilty when you are known to be depressed!