How to Handle Love Again

What if you do not know how to handle love again? All you know is to admire and be admired. But handling love again must be overwhelming or perhaps be deemed as something strange to deal with. It can be challenging to the new one if there will be. Or is it really going to be your problem or you will just let the other person handle and cope with the challenge like how a non-artist will make a landscape painting for the first time? Anyway, is loving again a challenge? Or just a new phase in life?

On top of doubt of handling love again, another worry is the person might be someone sent or part of the orchestration to inflict pain on you for years given that you were attacked left and right. May God take care of you when you are about to entrust your heart again to someone. May you fall for someone whose least agenda is to see you cry. May he not be part of a group who tried the best they can to inflict pain on you. May God spare you from him, if that is the case. There is no glory of loving someone who sees every wrong in you while empowering all the people around you to damage you to just simply turn you to a cheap craft. With all these thoughts, not to mention of years of not having romantic love at all may really be quite a big challenge on your part, not unless the one whom you are going to be with is God, then perharps, he can handle this with ease. And unto him, you will trust again. The sad truth, however, is that humans are not God which makes it really scary to start loving again. After all, it feels good to be friends with the former someone you are with and who is still constantly with you, not to mention your comfort zone is not in anyway threatened.

And as you think of all these, you perhaps would rather take the advice of many to just simply enjoy single blessedness given that since the time men discovered your charm during your youth, you had not experienced to be single. It was just recently  when you had the chance to choose which Asian art is better in the wall without considering if the other party will like it, too. At first, they wooed you and the moment you allowed someone in your life, it has been you who have been hooked to the person. Maybe that is how a woman really is until such time you slapped yourself of the word “enough”. And hopefully, by the time love begins again, you know how to leave a quarter of your whole to yourself.